So I've had a boyfriend for a while now. We do everything together. See each other everyday. I have feelings for him I have never felt before, or at least I thought I had felt before. We cook for each other, I help him fold laundry, I sleep in his bed multiple times per week. If I'm not studying or doing sorority stuff I'm usually driving to see him or with him already. At first I thought it was unhealthy, something no normal couple should be doing. I mean we are separate people with separate lives, no need to have a Siamese twin, right? But after a while I stopped fighting my urge to see him and now we are usually together. The feeling is indescribable. It's like a missing puzzle piece. We know [almost] everything about each other and that's how I like him. We don't keep secrets and I feel like I could talk to him about ANYTHING. I basically have diarrhea of the mouth when he's around anyways. But
I'm concerned
I'm not spending enough time doing ME things and spending ME time. Even though any time with my boyfriend is a
selfish act of
fulfillment, or at least spending time with him has the equivalent feeling of digesting a dark chocolate bar from
Ecuador. The paradox of college relationships: once you get into one it's up to you how much time to put in it. There are no parents and no requirements other than you know maintaining your grades (which you never really HAVE to do, unless you intend on staying in college). What am I to do?
Am I pushing my friends away? Should I be worried I might get sick of him?
I feel justified in saying no. I love him like that.
optimistic, CK
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